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In Love with the MemoryShiny shells, postcards and souvenirs,
Letters, photos and embroidery,
Lock of hair, thousands of trinkets
In this shabby old carton box,
Don’t you see I’m not really here,
And you’re loving memories?
I am long gone,
But you are still holding on to a dream
With a stone grip.
It was a breath-taking journey
But now it is time to let go.
I know it’s hard, I know it hurts
Striking pain that crushes you
Left without air and choking,
But I promise it will all pass
So loosen that grip now, love.
Don’t spend your life trapped
In a dream that now could never be
Step outside and I promise it will be alright.
Have I ever lied?
Cherish our journey and let go.
Let go of me love. Let go.
Best FriendDo you know how many times you’ve hurt me,
Never intending to, never noticing?
Do you know how many times you’ve pierced a dagger through my heart,
Completely oblivious to it?
Pain is the hardest coming from a friend.
What felt so natural to you
It pained me so deep.
Why do I feel as we are growing more and more apart
When you are walking right next to me?
Why do I feel like you’re slipping and I can’t hold you?
You have no idea how scared I am
That I will leave you behind
And that you will think I betrayed you.
You have no idea how many times I cried because of you,
Because you just don’t see, and I don’t know how to explain.
If you only knew how terribly scared I am,
That you won’t be there with me in the end.
But I do believe you know I will do everything I can
I will fight for you with all I’ve got
‘Cause you know that’s the only choice I have.
I can make an otome game out of my dreams...[NEW ROUTE ADDED!] *scroll down to read*
Route 1: Last two nights I've been having some interesting dreams.
In my first dream, I was just walking down some street and out of nowhere this guy appears and shamelessly puts his arm around my shoulders and we keep walking and my reaction was "OI, HOW DARE Y-..." *glances up to the guy* OMG, HE'S SO CUTE!!!...I don't trust you cute guy, but you're cute, so I'll forgive you. He was tall, asian, black hair, he looked like some k-pop star, wearing a simple white tank top and that smirk on his face uuuugh asdfghjkl; I asked him tons of questions but he didn't say anything, he was just smirking and being cute, he told me his name, but it sounded so ridicules that I assumed he was lying. Mystery type. Then he led me into some cafe where I met his sister and he disappeared QAQ But it was a cafe full of kitties so I was like "wait a sec...did he just turn into a cat?!" and aaaaa, that's
20140521I have been in an abusive relationship for five years
it didn't start out like this
but something changed
I don't know exactly when it happened
but now I wake up next to them with blood in my gums
I hide my arms and legs beneath shame and band aids
I've become hollow stone,
chambers only echoing the person I used to be
and now the only time I let myself cry
is in the shower, where they can't hear me
one time I tried to run away
some outside force
wouldn’t let me leave
my feet froze at the door
this person I love is tearing me piece by piece
string by string
but I can't get away because no matter how hard I try to forget
this house is empty
I am alone
and this person breaking my body
Your Death of Choice?A quarter after midnight I burned a poem,
With a soft, grey scarf I dried my tears,
Sat by the fire and listened to the world explode
Staring mesmerized at the flames, no fears
-how much would it sting?
Years ago, I stood at the end of a cliff at sunset
The cold bit my cheeks as I gazed at the town beneath me
Take a bow, it’s where her Majesty the Black Queen reigns
In the sea of cotton-candy clouds luring me so
-how long to fall before I crack open my skull?
This summer, I sat by the fortress above the dragon’s pit
Where I met the azure-eyed Lady of the Shire
She educated me of the poison ring, smiling viciously:
“Tea is such an innocent activity.” Why indeed-
-how long before I’m head down in cream and sugar?
Sometimes, when I cross that bridge I pause
To imagine the crack in the sidewalk growing bigger
And glare at the filthy water lazily flowing
Its little waves looking deceivingly safe and hungry
-how much more before I exhale my carbon dioxide?
I Miss YouShe ran up to me and told me
And my lips curled up in a smile
Wanting to laugh off the suggestion
For it couldn’t be but a joke.
When I came to realise she was only smiling
Because she was trying to be strong
I started breaking down
Pleading her to tell me she was lying
Because how could this horrid truth be?
How could you be gone?
I wanted to run from all their hugs
And condolences and questions if I was fine
How could I be fine when my very soul
Was being torn apart and my heart was bleeding?
I never knew the torment of being forced to
Quietly sit in my place all day long
While I was falling apart on the inside
I never knew the pain of restraining the tears
While all I wanted to do was scream.
When I was finally able to cry my heart out
I admit I was evil enough to wish others
Were in your place because it was so unfair
Because I never met someone as full of life as you
Because you deserved to live it to the fullest
Because it was just so wrong.
I wish you knew how angry I was
Dying StarsToo proud, I wanted to avoid the debate
When I finally entered the gate
It was already too late.
I should have been there
But I was so afraid of your stare
Thinking it’s more than I could bear.
Those dark blue eyes, the skies
Stars are turning off, I'm sorry for the lies,
Your light, it dies.
As the Sun down beams
I’m collecting my crushed dreams
Still hearing your screams.
How could life be so cruel
It took you away from me, my jewel
And I, I was such a fool.
Wings LostThey say opposites attract and they are right
For every blackened soul mourns their own innocence.
At first, I welcomed you, drawn by your pain.
There’s really no good story without suffering.
But I didn’t expect you to stick around
You crept into my mind ever so silently, never making a sound.
Something as pure as you shouldn’t be walking
In the dark depths that is my heart.
It’s been so long since it was last used
And I find myself slightly amused
Seeing how oblivious you are to the danger.
Like a kite, you fly so high never looking down
But I’m slowly sinking and I will take you down with me
You left a rope tied around my black heart and you will never again be free.
Once you’re grounded I’ll find a way to stain your innocent mind
To kill your light because you shine so bright it hurts.
Don’t you understand I don’t know how to love you this way,
I’m too jealous of your wings so I will cut them away
You’ll smile and te
GoodbyeBye bye, you can say goodbye to me,
I knew this love means nothing to you, you see.
Your heart is stone to the very core,
You'll see me here no more.
But first, I want you to regret
I’m not over with you yet,
Prepare yourself because the stage is set.
I am not talking about revenge, oh no,
That's not me, don't be scared,
Why would you be, you never cared.
I'm going to help you. You didn't deserve it, though.
Believe it or not, from me you can learn,
Come on now, show some concern,
You truly should worry,
The kind of person you are
– you'll deny, how bizarre –
How do you know who are your friends
In these times so blurry,
Where the truth begins and the lie ends?
Now watch and learn
Truth can burn.
Call now for those, who you call friends,
Is it loyalty or profit that binds?
Words have little meaning in the time of need
Important is the deed.
Bye bye, you can say goodbye to me,
You'll see me here no more,
Try to keep given lore,
I sure do hope something clicked in thee,
Nervous MovementYou're a dime a dozen in a sea of billions.
Individuality has no significance in numbers so vast.
And while this fact makes looking forward hard
we can't keep living in the past.
You're a nervous movement in a freeze frame scene.
Steady hands won't help hold up such a fragile act.
And while you take your time keeping character
you fake what you can't take back.
With nothing more than a thought we form our actions
and this is where we extinguish the lie they tried to invent.
The lie that we painted our lives without passion
well conclusions are useless with no attempt to commence.
You're a song I can't name stuck in my head.
I've listened to you before and probably will again.
And while I can hum the melody all day long waiting
for it to hit me I still won't know where you've been.
You're a gust that has never changed direction.
Nothing can touch you you're only felt as you brush skin.
And while you can't be stopped nothing lasts
nothing escapes time not even the wind.
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